the ideas behind
the letters
HINAGIRL's personal lyrical analysis on her upcoming release. the letters is a three-song extended play record of poems turned into letters never sent.
track one - exactly as i am
exactly as i am comes to the listener as a letter to one of HINAGIRL's lovers who -- unknowingly -- has made a somewhat rash and inaccurate judgement about her character. during this particularly sensitive time, a young piscean man strung words together in a way that deeply wounded our beloved songstress. she explains to the young man that while his flattery is recognized, it feels misaligned when compared to the pointed statements he is making about her way of existing. HINAGIRL bites back in true leo fashion, and the two lovers are now at odds. while the pisces may seem hypocritical in his judgement, HINAGIRL is not deeply wounded because he is wrong; rather, she is wounded because she feels like he is right. the letter in exactly as i am is not necessarily intended for the pisces who is caught in the crossfire of HINAGIRL's personal struggle. the chorus of the song should tell the listener one thing: HINAGIRL is sensitive, and she wants the piscean man to see that part of her: not the part of her that is constantly on display for others to judge without context.
track two - good-bye, valentine
good-bye, valentine places the listener at the tail end of a rather tumultuous breakup between HINAGIRL and a different young man. writing as though she were in the same room as him, HINAGIRL sings about the consequences of loving the young man so blindly. songs which were previously written for him feel like they should not exist anymore, and she asks the young man to forget that she even wrote them. HINAGIRL also alludes to the notion of drowning sorrows in alcohol: a behavior which is rather abnormal for her. she implores the young man to keep in mind that -- despite their previous on-and-off nature -- they are no longer friends, and they will never be together again.
track three - n
n closes out the extended play in a hopelessly romantic fashion. a familiar piscean man comes to visit HINAGIRL, and after spending six days together, she finds herself falling for him. in this letter -- sourced from two iterations of the same poem -- HINAGIRL asks the young man whether he can see her for who she is despite their previous difficulties in communication. reflecting on their time together, HINAGIRL cites the places that she visited with the pisces, wondering whether he will be there should she visit again. despite its brief mention, HINAGIRL also mentions that she is beginning to hear herself sing again. this is especially moving for her, as prior to the young man visiting, she could not hear herself for nearly five years.